Why don't I start from the beginning? My english isn't that good after some weeks without praticing it, but I guess you'll understand the story...
I simply disappeared two months ago. I know, I'm kina complicate and I disappear sometimes, but, this time, it was a reeeeally big break. But why did I do that? Well guys, a lot of things happened in the last months. First of all, I started a really hard year, with study and work and it was getting hard to write captions everyday. It got combined with the fact that I had a criative crisis. And with some people sending me notes to write more, that I wasn't publishing enough, I got a bit anxious and was being unable to write. Also, just to let it better, my father started to drink more than ever and was about to... Let's say make a real damage to me and my mother. I was nervous, anxious and a bit depressed. I was ashamed to come here without putting new content to you guys enjoy. And, just to make it a little bit more turbulent to me, I came out as transgender to my mother. She got really confused and things between us got a bit strange for some days... Enough days to make me freak out and decide to leave DA. I don't know why I did that. No, seriously, I REALLY don't know. For some reason, it seemed racional at the moment. Of course, I quickly realized that it was senseless. You guys here... My readers, my friends, were one of the things that made me feel happy. Relaxed. And I simply turned my back to you. (Okay, now I started to cry while I write this) But I just realized it almost one month after leaving. I couldn't come back and look at you guys, after I simply did this. I wasn't just feeling guilt, I was ashamed. I didn't knew what to tell you. I didn't know how I would come back. And, only one month after I realized what I was doing, I took courage to log in again.
I know, I already disappeared before. And I completely understand if you don't want to talk to me now or if you don't see memore any as you used to do. But, I'm not kidding when I say that I am sorry. Guys, I simply love you. My fans, my friends... I love you so much it is hard to describe.
But, if this helps somehow... Things now are really (REALLY) easier to me. First of all, I got my criativity and inspiration to write back. My father got better, my mother totally accepted me and, well... I officially started the gender transition. From now on, things will be really easier to me. And that means, that... Comp's caps are back from the dead! After a giant hiatus, I'll write again. I can't promise that you'll have a cap/day, but 3 or 4 per week is my objective in a first time.
The only thing I hope you accept me back one last time. I hope you can forgive the giant stupidity I did. I really love you, guys. And I won't do this again, I swear. I just hope you can forgive me. And, if not, it is also okay. I know I messed up REALLY bad this time. But, if you can, give me one more chance.
Also, thanks to EVERYONE that asked if I was okay and worried about me. Unfortunately, I just saw it now...